Mistress Zaynab's
Diary
Friday, January 23, 2009
Why I am here
In my effort to make Myself more accessible, I have rediscovered why I made Myself inaccessible in the first place. There are just too many people out there's who's goal is simply to waste My time. As soon as I make Myself available the wankers and flakes come out of the woodwork.
That said, I wish to remain accessible, while reviewing just why I am here; why I have this web site; why I started My own BDSM Temple; why I chose to be a Pro Domme. It will help Me, as well as potential new subs keep everything in proper perspective.
First and foremost, I am here because I am irrevocably kinky. Doing kinky things to people makes Me happy. I get a special thrill in being served and being in command of the men (and sometimes unique women) who get a special thrill out of being subservient, submissive, and often helpless to My whims. Recognize that the thrill is mutual. I don't hate men. I don't have anger issues. I'm expressing My creativity. I am having fun. Isn't it ideal to have fun with your work?
By the time I reached puberty, I also realized the immense and complex power there is in being Female. I revel in it. I enjoy having others revel in it with Me.
Equally importantly, I have always loved to take people on journeys that help them realize things about themselves and their world. If I were a drug I would not be an upper or a downer; not coke, nor speed, nor barbiturates. I might be a little like opium, though never like heroine. But, more accurately, I would be a psychedelic - a magic mushroom. I like to see people experiencing new things, feeling in new ways, having revelations. I get a vicarious high from it.
Closely related to that is My enjoyment of being in the role of guide or instructor. Because I thrive on learning Myself, I like to lead others to new knowledge, kinky or otherwise. Also, keep in mind in My mundane life I'm a Producer in the film business. I lead others toward creative ends quite naturally.
And finally, I am here to survive, to run a business, and support Myself. This is the part that is so often overlooked by those who contact Me. My time is valuable, because it is with My time (along with My knowledge and My sensuality) that I make My living. Wasting My time shows nothing but disrespect, and interferes with My livelihood.
I am here, willing and ready to take you to new places, to do things to you that others don't know how or may be unwilling to do. All you have to do is reach out and I will guide you to those feelings, that experience, that sense of belonging that you need. You want to belong to Me, and I am here, like the depiction of a Hindu Goddess, palms open, ready to receive you.
But if you are not serious about having these experiences, don't be the always disdained "wanker" that all Pro Dommes know too well. I am offering an experience that takes energy, time, and effort to create. The least you could do is to take part in the experience that you tell Me you so desire. I can only understand the wanker as one part coward, one part control freak, and one part nothing better to do. Wankers are a type - a bad, tired cliche and an unfortunate aspect of this business.
This message comes after a series of no-shows and time wasters that make Me almost regret opening my doors to newbies once again. But among the droning hum of the usual chorus of fools, there are a few true submissives, masochists, fetishists, and kinksters - those clear toned melodies that, no matter how off-key, make the song worth singing.
MZ
|
Mistress Zaynab shares her experiences, thoughts,
and musings.
|
