Mistress Zaynab's
Diary
Saturday, April 11, 2009
new fantasy
I've been thinking a lot about chastity lately. As Saiva, chastity is seen as a method toward both enlightenment and greater sexual power. I love the idea of being in complete control of someone's sexual urges, guiding them on this spiritual journey. My newest fantasy involves a chastity device, and a long term financial slave.
We begin with some trust exercises involving blindfolds, journeys, and breathing techniques to get you relaxed. I take you through the rules and positions I need to teach you so that your behavior meets My standards.
Next, I bring out the device that you have had shipped to My address. It's a chrome CB3000, nice and shiny, and very appealing to my rat-like sensibilities. I instruct you to kneel in front of Me and I hold it at eye level. I show you My key. I explain the concepts of asceticism and outline in detail the tantric significance of chastity, and how it will benefit your life.
"If you accept this device, it means that I am in complete control of your cock. You will not be allowed to pleasure yourself in any way without My explicit permission. In order to be allowed to masturbate you must kneel before Me and beg to be released from chastity. The privilege of such freedom will only be allowed in front of My eyes, as you perform for My amusement. When I am done with you the device will be locked once again and your chastity will begin again for whatever length of time I see fit. I am under no obligation to grant your request to pleasure yourself. I will keep you chaste for as long as I wish, be it days, weeks, or months."
You indicate that you agree. I tell you you are allowed to perform for Me once before your first period of chastity. You masturbate as I watch. I command you to hold off your orgasm until after I give My permission. We go through the process of a full session, and I periodically stop you to tease you mercilessly and make you perform for Me. Toward the end of the session I give your permission to release onto a saucer. I then make you lick up every drop (this is also a significant tantric practice. No semen should ever be wasted).
"Are you ready to accept your life as a chaste ascetic?" I ask. You agree. "And do you accept Me as your ultimate Guru, in complete control of your sexuality?" You do.
I help you to attach the chastity device, and with the click of the lock, you are mine. I have the key. There is no turning back.
I instruct you to visit Me once each week. Sometimes I will allow you the freedom of pleasuring yourself, and other times I will deny it. It depends entirely upon what I feel is best. You will keep a journal for Me with notes on how chastity is affecting your existence.
At times you will call or write to beg that I see you and set you free for just a short while. I then tell you that you may beg and bribe Me when your urges get too intense to bear. If I deny you, I may have a price... It's up to you to discover what that is, be it a gift or cash or a particular action.
It is My plan that such a relationship would continue for at least one year, that you may learn good self control and begin to reap the benefits of your new lifestyle. In the meantime we would discover new activities that we both enjoy together within the BDSM realm. Perhaps pain can replace pleasure as your favorite sensation? Or perhaps you will find it delightfully meditative and humbling to act as My eunuch servant? Perhaps, if it suits both of our desires, I will work toward softening your skin and changing your hormonal make-up to make you more and more androgynous. All of this would depend on the type of relationship we create.
If this a journey you wish to embark upon, and you can make My fantasy come true, write to Me now.
MZ
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